Yeah pretty depressing first post here on TOKHR (The Other Kind of Hermit Rambling). As depressing as it may sound, there must be an explanation as to why people would do such a thing. (maybe?)
Last night while I was watching MNF (Monday Night Football which saints won by the way damnit) a breaking news came up that Denver Broncos WR Kenny Mckinley was dead and investigators say that it was an apparent suicide.
Now this is not the first time I've read the news that an Athlete / Actor / Actress committed suicide. Most news I read are suicides from known actresses / actors in Korea but i'll leave that for another post.
First of all, what is a suicide? Well the direct definition of it is "An act of a human being to intentionally cause his/her own death." but to my personal definition of it is, "Running the fuck away from hardships and reality." Why would a person intentionally think of his/her own death?
I ask a couple of friends about it and one of my friend describes it as a "Desperate cry for help". Lets stop and think for a second, why would that person cry for help in the first place? A bad childhood? Hard tormenting life? A tragic incident that happened in the past? It can be any one of these or others that I didn't mention. Human beings are very fragile, you may be physically strong but mentally, you're as soft as mashed potatoes. You may be the most cheerful person on the earth but deep inside you're the saddest person alive.
I mean its a known fact that people are weak. We are all very weak, it's just the way we are. Some people just tend to be mentally stronger or have people around to guide them. Apparently there are some who don't have neither. You may be the most perfect person out there who is admired and aspired by everybody but unfortunately nobody really understands how you feel. Thats when a person starts to think "hey, I wonder if somebody will finally understand what I'm really going through once I'm dead"..
You know what I would say? "God damn son, you need to pause". "Would you really wanna die being known as the idiot who wasted his life because nobody understands you?"
These people who commit suicide needs to start thinking, "if I die, how will I go down in history?". Yes, you need to see the big picture in dying. See if you're alive, you have other chances on meeting somebody that really understands you. If you're alive who knows what you can do in the future. You never know you may accidentally find a cure to aids or invent the first time machine.
All I'm trying to say is, FUCKING LOVE YOURSELF FIRST before thinking of dying. There are other people in the world who is suffering from something more serious than what you're going through now. Think about the people who was born with a deformed face with only 1 eye who is blind, or people who fought in wars and lost an arm, a leg and their hearing. Think about those children who was born with an incurable disease. Dying because you think the whole world is against you is just being really selfish. Life is precious bitch, and you only have one so don't waste it.
Yeah I know this post was pretty half-assed lol.
